Head Honcho Poncho

I really do love fall and this nice cool weather. If I haven’t mentioned before, I’ll say it again; fall time is the perfect time to experiment with new fashion trends! You can layer and cozy up, try new textures and lengths, try different combinations and have fun with your wardrobe!

One thing I haven’t really ever tried was wearing a poncho, let alone a turtleneck poncho! In past years, I never felt comfortable wearing anything remotely crew neck. I felt like I was suffocating. However with my new pixiecut, I always love the look of short hair with mock and turtlenecks. So I thought I would give it a try.

StyleWe was kind enough to send this beautiful poncho that is the softest item of clothing I own now. My piece of advice, if you’re like me and were apprehensive about turtlenecks, try to find one that is a very soft material. There is nothing worse than wearing something around your neck that is itchy as hell and leaves you with a suspicious looking rash. This poncho is SO INCREDIBLY soft and I just want to wear this all winter long. It’s probably softer than my cats fur…which is VERY soft.

I chose the grey poncho from the two options of black and grey, I know that’s surprising for me too. But I thought the grey could not only keep  me warm, but with it being a lighter color and Southern California’s weather being so unpredictable, the grey could reflect the sun for those random warm spots throughout the day.

But because I love black so much, I decided to keep a solid black line on the bottom half of my outfit. The poncho is batwing and on the short side, I felt like keeping the bottom black would elongate my legs (like I need to be any taller) and look elegant without actually being uncomfortable. I’m wearing Norstrom Rack’s Articles of Society black jeans with some oxford style heel booties.

Happy Plants-giving!

I Hope you all had a Happy PlantsGiving! Or maybe VegansGiving! Which do you like more? I can’t decide, but this thanksgiving I took on the cooking responsibilities for our family and you best know I went Seitan Ham in the kitchen! Since buying our house, I have been nonstop excited to do things my way and in my own house. Halloween we had our first annual Halloween Party which I admit, I got a little too SHEET-faced. But now with the holidays, I have been even more excited to create new traditions and spend time as a hermit in my own house for the holidays!

Because it was only Ryan and I… and our three cats, I made a fairly small thanksgiving feast. But what’s more important is that it was completely vegan! I worked so hard to cook some delicious food, all the while keeping it plant based. I don’t think I have ever spent so much time in our kitchen actually cooking than this thanksgiving.

I made roasted vegetables, mashed potatoes and yams, stuffing,  and vegan gravy! Now I was thinking about making a “meat”loaf for the main entree to substitute the infamous dead poultry carcass. I have made one before and it came out deliciously, however I was already biting off more than I can chew with everything else to cook, so I just stopped by my nearest Whole Foods and picked up a vegan loaf. Easy Peasy. And this is just enough for me since Ryan isn’t the biggest fan of fake meat. I definitely want to make a loaf next year or even for Christmas, but this thanksgiving I cut a few corners.

If you are like me and are kind of a fish out of water when it comes to the holidays, don’t be afraid to speak up or make your own dish! Last year I told everyone I am vegan and don’t plan on eating turkey or anything that has animal by-products in it. My family was nice enough to accommodate some recipes for me, like instead of stuffing made with chicken broth, they made it with vegetable stock. My grandma even bought a loaf for me to eat instead of turkey.

If you aren’t lucky enough to have an accommodating family, make your own dish! Make a casserole! Those always fill me up! Mix a little of everything into the casserole that is your specific-diet-friendly. My advice if you do make your own dish, always make enough to share or have leftovers because I know some situations, people will feel like “oh only you can have that?” So make enough for people to try and if they don’t like it…more for you! And hey, you may even convert some people!

So just because you have dietary limitations and restrictions, doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy the holidays with your family. Just get creative! Like what I did, I said “I’m Having a thanksgiving dinner at my house, all is welcome, all food is vegan, if that bothers you, you can bring your own food.” But to be honest, my dishes are exactly the same if you don’t tell a carnivore you made a few substitutions. AND you won’t feel as heavy and weighed down if there is no butter and milk!

Living with pain

Living with chronic pain can be a literal pain in the ass. And if you are like me, you are constantly met with older individuals that claim, “You don’t know what back pain is, wait till you get to be my age.”

Listen, this is not a competition or pity party. I am in pain literally every damn day and I don’t need your damn comments. I don’t need to justify or prove to anyone what I am going through. The only time I tell anyone my back hurts is when it’s crippling and I’m on my last leg. I’ll even say “my back hurts.” To get out of things; not because I don’t want to do it, but because I physically CAN NOT.

But yes there is a stigma behind being young and in pain. We only complain because we don’t want to do something, or were bored seeking attention.

When you live with an invisible chronic pain or illness, the last thing you want is people to feel sorry for you or think that you’re untrustworthy or a slacker. I hate when my back debilitates me so much that even the act of sitting down to enter codes is unbearable. It’s my job to sit and be on a computer. I’m not throwing bales of hay on my back, and then complaining about back pain. That is understandable. But just because I’m not working a labor intensive job, doesn’t make my back pain any less real or crippling.

Even though my back pain was brought on suddenly, it was because of years of overworking it. It’s also because I may have fucked it up on a failed attempt at the long jump, and even because I have a slight case of scoliosis. So it has never been pin-pointedly confirmed WHY I have back pain. But I do. And it fucking sucks.

On extremely bad days, the only comfort I get is laying in a fetal position, praying someone will rip my spine out of my back just so I don’t have to feel the pain anymore. I cry because it is so unbearably painful, and I cry harder because there is nothing that I can do. It’s there and it will always be there. I think to myself, “I don’t even remember what it feels like to not have any kind of pain. What is that even like? To not have to squirm around to try and discreetly stretch out the knots in your back. To sit through an entire movie.”

On good days, I get a false sense of hope that maybe my back is getting better, maybe I don’t need to go to the chiropractor anymore. Maybe I don’t need to take an ungodly amount of pain killers just to function.

Chiropractors, massage therapy, exercise, acupressure, electro therapy…all of it really does help me. It helps me feel like I am making progress and reduces the amount of times I have muscle spasms and the hours in which I am paralyzed with pain. But it will always be there. I have to take each day at a time. I want everyone to be aware that ANYONE can be suffering with some kind of pain. Young, old, male, female… And only we understand how it feels. I just want people to understand that everyone is dealing with something. I want people to please be considerate.

Velvet Revival at TwinkleDeals

Winter is coming! And for me that means I get to wear ALL THE VELVET! I remember when my mom would dress me in (what I thought at the time was) hideous velvet dresses and blouses for the holidays… Little did I know that, velvet is freaking AMAZING! It’s freaking soft and comfy and literally everyone looks good in it! So when I learned that more people felt the same way about velvet enough to bring it back in style…AH! I got sooo excited! I have multiple leggings that are crushed velvet, blouses and a dress.

Velvet is coming back with a vengeance in recent years and I absolutely love it! I will buy ALL of it! I could honestly wear velvet everyday of my life and be completely happy.

TwinkleDeals has some great velvet items right now and if you’re like me, you’re going to buy everything in every color!