First things first… (I’m the real-est) Sorry had to. But seriously, I wanted to get down to business (to defeat, the HUNS!) Ugh. Ok really I’m sorry. I’ve been on a Disney binge lately and apparently an Iggy Azalea one too.
But on a serious note, I am constantly being told that I am so thin and that I look good and how people are jealous that I can wear things because I’m skinny. Well truth be told… I’m not skinny. Yes I know alert the presses!
Now to settle your minds I can tell you I’m 5’7″ and about 145lbs. But the things is when I hear people say I’m skinny…I usually think of twig models. And last time I checked models aren’t a size 9/11 and wear large shirts! I’m not extraordinarily curvy or voluptuous. But I’m not a Barbie. I guess I’m the true “average” My measurements are 36-29-39.
Back in 2012 I was about 125lbs. I think the “skinniest” I have ever been weight wise. I believe I was a size 5/7 and happy. Or so I thought. I was constantly hungry because I was restricting calories and running A LOT! Since then I put on more weight which didn’t bother me at first. I’m lifting heavier and eating for my muscles. But now, I feel like I can’t get back to being my definition of skinny. When I weighed 135-137lbs I was most happy. Now pushing 145-150… I’ve began to feel discouraged…I recently went to the doctor to have a birth control implant (Nexplanon) removed. I wanted to blame my weight gain on something and this new type of birth control seemed like my only scape goat. However I was told that the hormones in this birth control have no effect on weight gain. Just as normal oral contraceptives.
So let me clarify, I’m not trying to be a twig…again. I’m trying to look more defined. Lose FAT basically. I actually love being muscular and curvy but this stubborn fat just makes me (in my opinion) look stalky and bulky. I want to see my abs and back look like I can round house kick a tiger! (I don’t advocate animal abuse)
But I am slowly starting to accept my body. For how it looks, functions, and feels. I listen to it and give it what it needs, not what the fat-girl-voice wants. And that’s the best thing you can do right? Your body is a magnificent thing. It knows what it needs and how to function properly if you just pay attention.
So for everyone that says I’m skinny, please stop. I don’t like it. I guess I have a “guys” mentality and like to hear about my gains and not my thin-ness.